Where am I?

Last somedays I have been having weird thoughts.
I feel Im old, yes I'm : Fact of life. Worst is I feel I will die :s Another fact of life. But I just dont want to think about it.
Nothings helping the thought is there whenever it wants to...

I dont want to die.. I'm not scared of death - but I have started liking life since I have been married and I just dont want to die. Instead I want to rewind life 7 years back been married to my hubby then and enjoy life!

I want to lose weight..15 Kgs- straight!

Something I can do??